blah
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
with ♥ 7:26 PM
2dae sux. juz simply, plainly suck.... piano exam...played so many wrong notes. go back aps....okies. loads 2 sae here. @ 1st quite fun....everyone vy vy high. ruihao...im SHO SHO proud of you!!!! u dun sit cross legged lyk sissy anymore. aint sarcastic. im REALLI happi 4 u. im sry 4 squashin ur bag though. realli am. zhian....same cute baby face. wahaha. bt taller le. Li ern!!! see ur darling, sho much changes le worx. smiles... kesa....oh no. u r SHO freakin tall. i HATE you. hmph. chris. sho ADORABLE lorx!!!look so pinchable. mature alot le bt, lyk zhian...sill hab baby face. bt ha, im so proud of myself. im STILL taller den chris.and oh god. he's in choir. heez.jingxiang,seet...oh god. st john??!! laughs....^^ yenlin....slim down le. muz be e stress @ RGS. hmmm. muz be. Mrs chia...sho BLUR lorx. called her exactly 8 times b4 she answered. and we were lyk, juz in front of her? laughs. so cute. sa, shinna, li, nette h...see often so anyway. in aps it was ok. mr fong vy cute oso. haha. anyway. after tt. went out. SIANX. nvm whies. saw him alot of times. so whatever. li, i mean. u noe wat i talkin abt. and yes, e one whom we were talkin abt in pri 4 abt him being small. whatever. lame. ^^. den. came back. saix. juz totally bored. so here i am. waitin 4 SUPERSTAR 2 come on tv. oh well. gtg. ta~
life sux.
=jinghui=
sighx
Sunday, August 28, 2005
with ♥ 9:07 PM
i messed up my life. screwed it totally. i juz simply dun haf e mood @ all 2 do ath; fearing i'd do sth wrong again. i dunno how much longer i can put up a strong front. thank heavens.. i have gr8 fwenx who stand by me. bt i dunno how much longer i can stand this. i realli dun. wen im wit my fwenx..im all rite. i dun tink tt much. bt wen im alone..i dunno...it juz comes naturally. and oh no, if i listen sad song...i dunno how much body water i'd lose. no wonder im slimming down. 70% of my body water probably 50% gone. sighx. i dunno la. i hate tt perverted hand of fate. screwin up my life. makin mi fall. crumble. torn into pieces...well. nvm e hp thing. hp gone 4 a wk. fine. ive got a bloodie piano exam 2 worry abt, a bloodie life, and yuk, bloodie exams comin. haish. i wish i could go e dance. sho fun. bt oh well. all e attention will be on li ern aniwae. and aiyo. so many ppl borrow my clothes.. smiles...eh..oh no...alot of ppl de bdae cmin. haish. gonna be broke again...hmph. debbie ar debbie. still wan 2 buy clothes. i tink //SCRIMP N SAVE// tt motto oso cant be used nehs. haha. our $197 goal. haha. dun wan go zoo la. wa lao....lolx. sep holidaes....i dun care. ask ur darlin go out. i'll pull reenx along too. wahaha. so fun. den go haunted hse i go wit reenx. u n ur dear k? so wen smone grab ur leg, he can kick tt poor person 4 u. hee. =). aiyo. 9.30pm le. gtg liaos. tons 2 do. chinese oral tml. wth. haish. blah blah blah. im feelin sho annoyed n grumpy. i nid coke. i wish u knew wat im feelin. i wish u knew.. tt i dun tink i can eva let go..tt..i'll alwaes love you.. even though e cards r all laid on e table.. n i dun haf any other choice bt 2 see u turn n leave...away from me.... n no matter how much i cry or how my hart breaks.. it'd stay tt freakin way...juz cuz fate interferred.. if only...=jinghui=
Saturday, August 27, 2005
with ♥ 9:32 PM
im sry. im sry 2 literally evryone in e world. evrythin juz aint goin rite. i wish i could turn back time.. ch. my enteries aint talkin abt u. inhwa. im sry i din defend 4 ya. i realli am. charlie. im sry bt it seems all ur efforts haf gone down e drain. bling too. n deb. n reenx. im sry... =jinghui=
cries..
with ♥ 9:17 PM
im lost. i realli dunno how long i can stand puttin a strong front. i realli dun. =jinghui=
bastard
Thursday, August 25, 2005
with ♥ 5:46 PM
u noe wat? sm ppl juz dunno e meanin of thick skinned. they dunno wen 2 stop. they dunno they r idiots. they dunno wtf they r doin. they dunno their limits. i hate these ppl. and hypocrites. fcuk. 2 e hell wit em.okies. happi stuff. 2dae debate realli fun. haha...kip laughin. dance too. whee! ml auditions. yay. sad cant dance on actual dae. sighx. oh well. =) had loads of fun 2dae...mi, deb, bao n cheryl. haha. and deb 2dae..wa lao. tempremental. lolx. aiyah. alot of things happen la. smiles. arjun vy funny. lolx. samuel..thankie! and lastly.... ZAC!!! happi bdae!!!! =)....=jinghui=
freak.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
with ♥ 9:29 PM
wat 2 sae 1st. i in bad mood nw. yst chralie n choco factory vy lame, bt funny. went 2 swensens wi horny, izzy, xinlin, chiat yi, wan xing n yuki. had loads of fun. snatchin e chocolate ballz. so tts it. had fun. 2dae. moody whole dae. same usual thing happened. so wadeva. nette feelin juz as rotten 2dae. i dun wan 2 gif a damn anymore. if he wans it tis way there is nth i can do. since he wans 2 love. go ahead. ive loved e wrong person den. i aint gonna stead animore. twice. twice ive been hurt. tis ish e deepest ive eva felt, n i hate this feelin. i wanna be lyk nette. yenlin. all those steadless n carefree ppl. sighx. nt in tis terrible n rotten state im in now. damn it. fcuk. =jinghui=
wadeva
Thursday, August 18, 2005
with ♥ 5:29 PM
sighx. life's realli unfair smtimes. life sux. fate juz hafta interfer. Sometimes...i realli wish tt i could choose who i wanna love, rather than e big hairy perverted hand of fate pointing its finger in a different and stupid direction, rippin my world apart. i guess..i juz made a total mess of my own miserable life. sigh. i guess, im truly le crap. haish... aniwae..life's still liddat. @ e bottom of e pit. total blackness. once in a while, a glimmer of light shine thru. and nette. reenx. deb. lii. bling. charlie. ah zhong. horny. momo. bao. cheryl. tts u guys...thx 4 cheerin mi up all e time wen im down.. smiles..whether intentionally or juz laughin e whole dae [bao, cheryl, deb. our cleaner, zoo keeper/elephant cleaner, and wahaha millionares/singer wannabe mi n bao. ^^. and bao standin by e "motion" wild wild wet..mi n deb by e "motion" escape theme park and cheryl..ZOO. laughs... and cheryl and mi's "she me?!!" here n tere..hee] tts wen i realli 4get all e sadness and laugh my heart out...smiles.. thankie guys..=). okie. hmmm. wat else? tests...aiyah. din do well so ask no more. shhh. PIANO EXAM!! its coming!! *sniffles* sad cant go e cheer thing. cheer ur harts out, 2 endeavour!! well. *cross fingers* hope piano exam can try @ least get a distinction...note e finger crossin and e word HOPE. smiles. den...i got over e derrick thingy le. nt excited le. juz ANNOYED. ppl saw him and ask 4 phone number he GAVE lorx. tootzie mi. nv ask. sighx. hope junyang get in. e gals...i wan both get in lehx. sighx. oh well. i realli cant be arsed smtimes. sighx. hmmm. tts abt it ba. nth much le. same old life, wit a broken hart. and im dyin 2 watch "charlie n e chocolate factory"... dunno tml got go watch anot lehx. sighx. oh well. bought alot of clothes. sho happi. smiles. and CIP/NYAA e hrs...i got 26 hrs le frm outside volunteer work. haish. i still do till so jia lat. no nid 2 do le lorx. oh well. SWENSENS!!! hee. sho in love wit ice-cream. my dream of slimmin 2 42kg gone. fly away. haha...food more important. hee. okie. tts abt it. n i finally understand...no matter wat i do, life will throw watever shit it wan to my freakin way n tere is nth i can do abt it..fantastique, oui? hee. im sho in love wit french. =). vive la french.. smiles. anyway. tts it le. i shall end here. sighx. ``[a gr8 love ish wen u shed tears and still care 4 him... ish wen he ignores u n u still long 4 him.. ish wen he decides 2 love another and yet...u smile and sae..im happi 4 yew...]/=jinghui= [broken..]
oh no
with ♥ 5:04 PM
oh no!!! LII!!! im SO SORRY!! i type wrong!!! PPL PLZ TAKE NOTE WORX....TT DAE WENT MARINA WIT MI DE ISH SA, SHINNA AND LIERN!! Li im realli sry!! =jinghui=
omg!!!
Monday, August 15, 2005
with ♥ 8:52 PM
guess wat???!!! giggles i saw DERRICK!!! he signed autograph 4 mi!!!! and wrote as "to: jinghui" oh my god.....im in love!!! giggles. okok. crush. im mad i noe bt i cant help it!!!! he's so cute!!! omg!!! giggles.....im grinnin lyk an idiot nw can...giggles..... omg...he's so cute!!! cute cute cute cute cute!!!!! *awwwwwwwwww!~!!!!* saw lijun too...bt saw her twice b4 so, nvm tt. giggles. i LURVE derrick!!!!! im SO goin 2 join his fan club. haha. lijun walk past was jokin wit fwen if onli derrick or junyang is here...den omg he walked past and stood outside mac wit lijun!!!! i was lyk...OMG!!!! giggles....still tryin 2 recover frm my star-struckness. giggles. he got such a cute voice lorx!!! giggles....arrgh!!! buay tahan la!!! giggles...so cute!!!!!!!!!!!! he fumblin vy cute lorx...haha....dunno wat 2 do liddat...giggles....DERRICK ROCKS!!! *lurve him 2 bits. haha---* =jinghui= im SHO star~~~struck.
omg!!!
with ♥ 8:52 PM
guess wat???!!! giggles i saw DERRICK!!! he signed autograph 4 mi!!!! and wrote as "to: jinghui" oh my god.....im in love!!! giggles. okok. crush. im mad i noe bt i cant help it!!!! he's so cute!!! omg!!! giggles.....im grinnin lyk an idiot nw can...giggles..... omg...he's so cute!!! cute cute cute cute cute!!!!! *awwwwwwwwww!~!!!!* saw lijun too...bt saw her twice b4 so, nvm tt. giggles. i LURVE derrick!!!!! im SO goin 2 join his fan club. haha. lijun walk past was jokin wit fwen if onli derrick or junyang is here...den omg he walked past and stood outside mac wit lijun!!!! i was lyk...OMG!!!! giggles....still tryin 2 recover frm my star-struckness. giggles. he got such a cute voice lorx!!! giggles....arrgh!!! buay tahan la!!! giggles...so cute!!!!!!!!!!!! he fumblin vy cute lorx...haha....dunno wat 2 do liddat...giggles....DERRICK ROCKS!!! *lurve him 2 bits. haha---* =jinghui= im SHO star~~~struck.
things haf changed..
Friday, August 12, 2005
with ♥ 9:07 PM
well. happi or sad stuff 1st? hmm. happi ba. went marina on national dae and guess wat. e fireworks rox. totally...=). sa. nette. shinna. i tink we were realli mad tt dae. haha. all rite. juz mi. haha....shinna was TALKIN ON E PHONE LITERALLY THRU E WHOLE DAE. hmph. nvm. we shall 4give her eh nette? sa? hee. e sweet start of love. smiles.. well were lyk sho mad takin e ride again n again. haha. till i now got so many blue black. haha. den we sat on grass talk. haha. all e insects attacked sa. hee. den saw tis realli realli fluffy dog. omg. i tell u i nv see so fluffy one. and its tail look lik *** **. lolx. sa..nette...shinna. u noe la horx. i dun wan 2 sae. laughs... anyway...den we went 2 eat. den walk 2 chill-out-by-e-bay. wa lao. e concert tere so HIGH lor. bay tere vy quiet. hmph. we took loads of pics...[aeroplanes, smoke, scenery, helicopters, or "zi lian kuang and took pics of ourselves all have. haha. Lii u noe wat i sayin, yea? haha..] [shinna still talkin on hp. Lii's hp, 2 be exact.] den till realli nite le....and i mean...time flies. den finally fireworks...realli realli stunnin and dazzlin. after 1st round of fireworks sa was like "aiyah...if onli they surprise us again..." den was lyk... keepin our cams and all..suddenly realli 2nd round lorx!! lolx so funny. e second round fireworks was realli realli beautiful... smiles... well...i decided nt 2 budge after tt[ now im sho in love wit e word "budge". haha. ] bt aiyo. hafta go home. sad. anyway. I WAN 2 STAY 4 E CONCERT!! SNIFFLE. QIU ZE GOT SING!! haish. oh well. okie. here comes e fun part. we were lyk stuck in a smelly, and ewwww human traffic jam. lolx. wit shinna still talkin on phone, we squeezed/squashed/died thru e human sardine. i almoz died. of deprived of oxygen. anyway we managed 2 get on bus 400A. haha. den went 2 mrt station, i was lyk "oh no..." why? cuz ppl were lyk stagnant. even b4 we can take e escalator down where we tap e card. haha. well. we did it! and we got on mrt. stood thruout e ride lor. sit on floor de end up too many ppl. hmph. [lii and i was takin pics in e train. haha. and Lii!!! i wan my pics...] well...haha. we survived. hees. tt dae was realli fun bt... it brings sad memories. nvm tt.. anyway.. tt was national dae. den haha thurs...[yst] i went swensens wit ah zhong. lolx. we ate e sundae den e family beside us ordered so much lorxz!!! haha. we were green wit envy. haha. den went KFC. lolx. i guess tis explains y im always complainin im fat. haha. okie...so tts abt all e happi stuff... sad... well. same old thing. juz tt...i wish i knew wats goin on. i realli nid 2 let go le....im lyk slittin my own wrists if i dun. it hurts. it realli do. bt i dun tink i'd be into relation till love realli knocks again...tt, perhaps, will be some time down e road le ba...=). anyway. DERRICK AND JUNYANG ROX!!! sad derrick nv get in. haish. oh well. =). i cant wait 4 BBQ tml. one endeavour rox. totally. ^^. =jinghui=
life changes.
Monday, August 08, 2005
with ♥ 6:52 PM
wat can i sae. life changes. sighx. y can he 4get evrythin within less dan 3 wks? haf i walked into sm1 else's dream, or haf i loved e wrong person all along? r my silent tears useless? he wun even bother 2 look or try 2 clear e misunderstandin. i guess. ish time 2 let go. =jinghui=
